Two-faced woman...

Verse...  "Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.  Do not cast me away from Your presence, and do not take Your holy spirit from me.  Restore to me the joy of your Salvation, and uphold me by your generous spirit."  Psalm 51:10-12


Thought for today...   Just because God works incredible good out of unspeakable tragedies doesnt mean He orchestrated the tragedy. Dont ever assume that God using something means that He caused it or that He needed it to accomplish his purposes. (Wm Paul Young)

Another thought for today....  Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... And the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)...whatever it is...You need to know that:


God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing.He has seen your whole life.... He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven. He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you. The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness; He not only forgives you, but He forgets. It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.





Song/video....  





Poem....  I found this poem online, I hold no rights to it.  The author is unknown...

The Two-Faced Woman:




A wink, a nod, "I'm fine," I say,

To people as they walk past.

But inside my heart is torn to shreds,

My smile is just a mask.



I'll sit and chat, maybe share a joke,

Or at least I'll really try.

But my genuine friends see through the smoke,

My empty eyes cannot lie.



At home I weep, feel down in despair,

My feelings I cannot hide.

From husband, daughter, baby girl,

I'm afraid they're along for the ride.



Those waves of grief, they still hit hard,

And knock me off my feet.

I'm comforted, though, by their tender touch,

My daughters turn the bitter to sweet.



My babies now have Angel Wings,

In heaven they play and rest.

But in my heart I have their love,

And for that, I'm eternally blessed.



Yes, I'm the two-faced woman,

It's a job that I have to do.

To get on in life without my babies,

Day, week, and whole year through.





~

Waiting on you

Verse....  Now when He got into a boat, His disciples followed Him.  And suddenly a great tempest arose on the sea, so that the boat was covered with the waves.  But He was asleep.  Then His disciples came to Him and woke Him saying, "Lord save us!  We are perishing!"  But He said to them, "Why are you fearful, O you of little faith?"  Then He arose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm.  So the men marveled, saying, "Who can this be, that even the winds and hte sea obey Him?"  Matthew 8:23-27




Song/video....    


Bonus video for today...   





Poem...

Waiting on You
Seems so hard to do
When Im focused on me
And not upon you

Submitting my will
Obediently to serve yours
Brings me to refreshing
peaceful waters.

Striving to move upstraeam
Against society's treacherous currents
Is truly an effort in futility
Without riding upon Your wings of Grace

Please give me the patience
To follow your lead
Dwelling in the tranquil waters
Reflecting your glorious face.

(from the book Your Gift of Grace)

Sinking in sorrow

Verse...  "Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck.  I sink in deep mire.  WHere there is no standing; I have come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me.  I am weary with my crying: my throat is dry; my eyes fail while I wait for my God."  Psalm 69:1-3


Thought for today....  We sink in our grief after a miscarriage and feel like we are drowning.  Call out to Jesus for help.  He can help you.  There were many days I felt like I was going to drown in grief over the loss of my babies.  But with the help of God I made it through.  Call out to him!



Song/video....  



Poem...

Sinking in sorrow

Sadness floods my soul
Tears pour down like a river
mourning and sorrow
hold me down
like a heavy weight
around my neck
my head just above
the surface of restless waters

Water keeps rising
The load keeps pulling me down
My mouth will soon
pass the water line
with my last breath
Just before going under
I beg you, Lord,
Please release this anchor
before I drowned.

Babies born in heaven

Verse....  He said to them"When you pray say 'Father, hallowed be your name your kingdom come.  Give us each day our daily bread. Forgive us our sins, for we also forgive everyone who sins against us.  And lead us not into temptation."  Luke 11:2-4 NIV


Thought for today...   God knows you.  He engraved your name on his hands and keeps your tears in a bottle.  He is near you.  And his kingdom needs you.  You are part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.  (from the cure from the common life)



Song/video.... 


Poem... 

Babes Born in Heaven




I slept securely in the shelter of the womb,

Perfectly protected in my very special room.

Only Jesus knew me, I was yet unborn.

That sorrowful day, your heart was torn.

You were left with only baby things,

I was carried away on angel's wings.

Taken to a far better place,

Secure in the comfort of Jesus' embrace.

babes born in heaven are bountifully blest,

for they've only ever known the best.

Their lullabies sweet angels sing,

In the palace nurrsery of the King.

Here you grow up, but you never grow old,

It's warm and comfy, but never cold.

Heaven's play grounds are always safe,

for even the tiniest waif.

I laugh and I sing and have playmates too,

AND JESUS TELLS ME ALL ABOUT YOU.

I've met Great Grandma and Grandpa too,

we're all waiting to welcome you.

Jesus will wipe away every tear,

The purpose for everything will be clear.

There'll be no more death, sadness or pain,

Only joy, contentment and peace here reign.

Though, for a moment, life seems unfair,

Eternity will be proof of his care.

What you've given up, for which you grieve,

Can't compare to that which you'll recieve.

Your child born and raised in Heaven,

One day, by the Father you'll be given.



Author: Unknown

Grace is spending Christmas in heaven...

This year Grace is spending Christmas with the angels
Up above the stars in the sky
Sitting on Jesus lap
and Playing in Heaven's playground
with all the other babies
that have gone from earth way too soon.

I know my baby is safe and warm
and kept from harm
I know she's looking down on us
wondering why we're sad

We wanted her to spend Christmas with us
But instead she is in heaven.

Lynn Fozzy

written about my daughter Grace Amber Fozzy who went to be with Jesus after being delivered at 18 weeks on March 24, 2009...  Rest in peace my beautiful baby girl!

Merry Christmas!

I pray that this Christmas Season brings you joy, peace, love and hope! 



and please remember that

Faith

Verse.... "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving; present your requests to God. And the peace of God that transcends understanding, will guard your hearts and your mindsin Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:6-7 NIV



Thought for today...  




Song/video... 







Poem...   this is a beautiful tribute I found online to her daughter..  I hope you ladies enjoy!

for my Savannah Grace-



born still 7/2/02


loved & missed



FAITH



I talked to God about you

last night as I prayed

He said, "I know you loved her too

but I had to take her away"



He told me not to worry

that she was just fine

and for me not to be in such a hurry

because I would hold her again in time



He said, "Your grandparents are here

and they watch over her for you,

so there's no need to cry more tears

because she gets sad when you do,"



"She wanted me to tell you she was proud

to have a mother who loves her so much

and it hurts her to hear you cry so loud

when you are longing for her touch,"



"So be happy and live your life

you will have such a blessing

I know when the time is right,

it's your faith in Me, I'm testing.



love mommy-

I'll see you when the sun goes down....

Verse....  "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each da has enough trouble of its own."  Matthew 6:34 NIV



Thought for today...  Dont forget with Christmas coming up the real reason for the season, and that is the birth of Jesus, our Saviour!



Song/video..... 




Poem.... Author unknown (found online)

I'll see you when the sun goes down


And all the stars go crazy,

And Christ returns to claim His throne

Upon this erring earth.

And you and I will be amazed

At all that now seems hazy;

For now is faith, but then will be

The glory of rebirth.



Death will die, and we will sing

With angels at our ears,

And all my love for you will pour

Like rivers from my song.



And joy will never end, for we

Will be beyond the years,

And time before the end of time

Will not seem very long.



How beautiful Creation will

Then be! Much more than now,

When visible to faith alone

As we endure our pain.



How wonderful the gift of grace

From Christ that will allow

Me well to bear my grief until

I see you once again.

Infertility

Verse...  "But the angel said to him "Do not be afraid.".  Luke 1:13 NIV


Thought for today.  The verse above was when the angel was telling Zechariah that his wife was expecting a child and she was advanced years (she was thought barren).  But I think the message applies to us as well.  "Do not be afraid"...  God knows the plan for you life..  We have been studying this verse at church and I just felt the need to share it this morning.


Song/video....  <object width="445" height="364">





Poem.... This poem was written about infertility but I believe it applies to us as well.  Because we still have the longing for the baby.  I hope you enjoy.  I found this online author unknown...

Our infertility cannot be seen


But we feel it everyday

The hurt the anguish and despair

Doesn’t go away



We are grieving all the time

For something we never had

I never thought that was possible

To lose something that was never there – to feel so sad



We hate to feel this way

We hate to cry these tears

We hate to wonder how long this will take

Will it be months or years?



It kills us to see other families

It’s a reminder of what we aren’t

We should smile for them and be happy

But we just can’t



It hurts us to listen to parents

Saying a crying baby is the pits

We should be so lucky to have a crying baby

We wouldn’t mind a bit



We would sit and admire our baby

This amazing thing that we created

We would embrace this baby with so much love

And talk about how long for this we had waited



We wouldn’t mind the dirty nappies

Or the many sleepless nights

We would just be grateful to have our bundle

That we would hold so tight



We wouldn’t complain about feeding

Or having our lives turned upside down

Nothing could get rid of our smiles

From having our baby around



We hope the wait is over soon

And that our baby will be here

Then the day will come

That we can finally shed happy tears

How do you love a person

Verse...  "My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant.  From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me - holy is his name."  Luke 1:46-49  NIV



Thought for today....  When people do what is right, God remembers...  (The inspirational study bible)




Song/video.... 



Poem....


How do you love a person


Who never got to be,

Or try again to see a face

You never got to see?

How do you mourn the death of one

Who never got to live,

When there's nothing to feel good about

And nothing to forgive?



I love you, little sister.

You're a person of the wind,

Free to be the memory

Of all that might have been.



I love you, little sister,

My companion of the night,

Wandering through my lonely hours,

Beautiful and bright.



What does it mean to die before

You ever can be born,

To live the lovely night of life

And never see the dawn?



Ah! My little sister,

You lived like anyone!

Life's a burst of joy and pain,

And then, like yours, it's done.



I love you, little sister,

Just as if you'd lived for years.

No more, no less, I think of you,

The angel of my tears.

For my baby angel....

Verse...  "The Lord is my shepard I shall not be in want, he makes me like down in green pastures, he leads me beside the still waters, he restores my soul.  He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.  Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me.  You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.  You annoint my head with oil, my cup overflows.  Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."  Psalm 23 NIV


Thought for today...  Grief from whatever source, is a long and painful journey..  And I found, its full of frightful choices.  The urge to retreat into a cocoon like existence is great, and depression is slipped into easily.  The healing balm of God's very special grace heals us from the inside out.  (Verdell Davis)




Song/video..... 




Poem....  Found on the internet, author unknown

When you began to grow, so did the feelings deep inside


When I knew you were there I brimmed with all my pride

Our lives were going to be busy, hectic and such fun

But it was not to be my beautiful little one.



You were taken from us by a cruel, horrid twist of fate

Alass our paths were not to cross until a later date

One day I'll show you how I cuddle when you need me there

To give all the love I have but never got to share.



So until we meet again my angel I'll hold you in my heart

For my love for you grows stronger even though we are apart

You're in every smile I share and every good thing I do

So bye for now my darling til mummy comes to you xxx

Some say....

I know that many of you that are reading this are probably struggling with your faith after what you have been through.  You are probably thinking "Why me" or "how could God do this to me" or "how could he let it happen again?"...    I cannot answer those questions for you.  I can only pray that you find peace with your loss.  The loss of a child is a devastating loss no matter if it is 4 weeks or 40 weeks.   I hope that through reading my blog you are able to re-kindle your faith in God.  Because no matter what bad things happen to us he will ALWAYS be there with you. You may not always feel him but I promise when you look back you will know that he was with you holding your hand during those hard times.  May God Bless each and every one of you today.


Verse....  My pastor used this verse last night, and I think its such a great verse that I had to use it today.. "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal.  But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."  Matthew 6: 19-21 NIV



Thought for today...  Meet today's problems with today's strength.  Dont start tackling tomorrows problems until tomorrow.  You do not have tomorrow's strength yet.  You simply have enough for today.  (from the book Traveling Light)




Song/video....   




Poem...

Some say you are the wind,


Some say you fly at night,

But I know the truth,

God holds onto you real tight.



Some say your in the water,

Some say your in the sun,

But I know where you are,

You are safe my little one.



Some say you are a butterfly,

Some say you are our peace,

But I know you are just resting,

You wait from death to be released.



I know one day you'll read this,

Maybe understand my pain,

See I want you back insde me,

So I can do my job again.



I believe God will do this for us,

Join us back together we'll be,

Then you'll be my butterfly,

As you grow, just wait and see.



Then together we will look,

Out at the mountains and the trees,

You'll hold my hand and whisper,

Mum that's where I've always been.



You'll mean you were my spirit,

Your what kept me going and strong,

You'll mean you were the reason,

Why this life will go on.

My child....

Welcome to my Daily Inspiration blog.. I started doing a daily inspiration post on a message board that I frequent not long after losing my baby Grace at 18 weeks gestation. I have lost three babies total, one at 8 wks, one at 18 wks, and one at 7 wks. I am currently expecting again and praying that it is God's will we get to keep this baby.



I moved my daily postings over to this blog when I got pregnant again and didnt want to offend girls that were grieving. I post a daily bible verse, a thought for the day, a song and a poem.. I hope that you enjoy and maybe it helps you see light on the "dark days" after pregnancy loss/ miscarriage. I can tell you that God has carried me through the last year.



Verse..  "My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant.  From now on all generations will call me blessed, for the Mighty One has done great things for me holy in his name.  His mercy extends to those who fear him, from generation to generation."  Luke 1:46-50 NIV



Thought for today....  God leads us.  He will do the right thing at the right time.  (from the book Traveling Light)




Song/video....  Mark Schultz is a wonderful artist!  I hope you all enjoy this song.

Another Mark Schultz song...  (tissue warning) I believe he wrote this when his son was sick with cancer...




Poem....

MY CHILD




My darling Child,

How much I love you,

Will you ever know?

I shall never hold you

Close to my bosom,

Only within my heart.

I will never sit at your bedside,

And listen to your tiny breaths,

As you sleep soundly.

I shan’t watch your first steps,

With awe, wonder and pride

And the patter of your tiny feet

Will never be heard.

No one will see your pretty face

Or tiny hands and feet

For God decided

That you were much too special

For this cruel world.

He wanted you to stay

Up above in Heaven

And sing with the angels.

I love you

My angel child.

Little angels...

Welcome to my Daily Inspiration blog.. I started doing a daily inspiration post on a message board that I frequent not long after losing my baby Grace at 18 weeks gestation. I have lost three babies total, one at 8 wks, one at 18 wks, and one at 7 wks. I am currently expecting again and praying that it is God's will we get to keep this baby.



I moved my daily postings over to this blog when I got pregnant again and didnt want to offend girls that were grieving. I post a daily bible verse, a thought for the day, a song and a poem.. I hope that you enjoy and maybe it helps you see light on the "dark days" after pregnancy loss/ miscarriage. I can tell you that God has carried me through the last year.



Verse...  "Then Job replied to the Lord 'I know that you can do all things, no plan of yours can be thwarted.  You asked "who is this that obscures counsel without knowledge.?" Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know.  Job 42:1-3 NIV
 
 
 
Thought for today.....  Peace is much less a condition than a state of mind.  Anxiety and tension can rule the day even when the circumstances of my life would indicate that all should be well with me.  I can walk in sunshine and see only shadows.  I can be surrounded by those I love and be consumed with fear of losing them.  I can accomplish a great task and still wonder why I did not do better.....  Peace in the ultimate meaning of the word, is not the absence of conflict.  It is not the accumulation of wealth or comfort and ease, or a state of happieness.  Peace is that sense down deep inside that says no matter what happens, all is well with my soul...  (Verdell Davis)
 
 
Song/video...  This isnt the greatest video, but this is a very powerful song! 
 
 
 
Poem... 
 
Little Angels


When God calls little children

to dwell with Him above.

We mortals sometimes question

the wisdom of His love.

for no heartache compares with

the death of one small child,

who does so much to make our world

seem wonderful and mild.

Perhaps God tires of calling

the aged to His fold.

So He picks a rosebud

before it can grow old.

God knows how much we need them

and so He takes but few,

to make the land of Heaven

more beautiful to view.

Believing this is difficult

still somehow me must try.

The saddest word mankind know

will always be "Goodbye".

So when a child departs

we who are left behind,

must realize God loves children,

Angels are hard to find.

~Author Unknown

He sings me lullabies..........

Welcome to my Daily Inspiration blog..  I started doing a daily inspiration post on a message board that I frequent not long after losing my baby Grace at 18 weeks gestation.  I have lost three babies total, one at 8 wks, one at 18 wks, and one at 7 wks.  I am currently expecting again and praying that it is God's will we get to keep this baby.

I moved my daily postings over to this blog when I got pregnant again and didnt want to offend girls that were grieving.  I post a daily bible verse, a thought for the day, a song and a poem..  I hope that you enjoy and maybe it helps you see light on the "dark days" after pregnancy loss/ miscarriage.  I can tell you that God has carried me through the last year.


Verse..  " Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh."  Luke 6:21 NIV



Thought for today...  There are moments when the suffering is so deep that one can hardly talk to a person.  What a joy it is then to know that the Lord understands.  No pit is so deep that the Lord is not deeper still.  Underneath us are the everlasting arms - and the Lord understands...  (Corrie Ten Boom)




Song/video... 



Bonus video for today... 



Poem...

Candles....

Verse...  "Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck."  Psalm 69:1




Thought for today....  Out of the billions of other souls in the world, God sees you.  He knows you.  He loves you.  And he's willing and able to help you. (peter wallace)




Song/video.........   




Poem...

Candles


by sascha



It is not easy to remember dead children.



But, easy or not,

we know that we will not -

and do not want to -

forget them.



Therefore we reach out together again,

to love them and to celebrate their memory.



Again, we light their special candles

and we say their beloved names.



We remember our children, who died.

They remain forever part of us, and we are richer for having shared their lives,

however briefly.

Wish...

Verse....  "Let your patience show itself perfectly in what you do."  James 1:4



Thought for today...    Dear Risen Lord, How hard it is to see clearly when devastating circumstances fill my eyes with tears.  How blurry everything gets.  Even you get blurry, and the sound of your voice becomes strangely unfamiliar.  Help me to blink away those tears to see that you are standing beside me, wanting to know why I am crying.... wanting to know where it hurts... wanting to wipe away every tear from my eyes.  Thank you Jesus for being there, for never leaving me or forsaking me, even in the darkest and chilliest hours of my life.  (Ken Gire)



Song/video...   



Poem...

Wish


by sascha



I wish you gentle days

and quiet nights.

I wish you memories

to keep you strong.

I wish you time to smile

and time for song. . . . .

And then I wish you friends to give you love,

When you are hurt and lost and life is blind,

I wish you friends and love and peace of mind.

When I must leave you...

Verse....  "My help comes from the Lord, who made the heaven and earth."  Psalm 121:2




Thought for today...  God planned and packed you on purpose for his purpose.  Heaven's custom design.   (from Cure for the Common Life)





Song/video...   This is an excellent video, song and skit...  I hope you all enjoy.. 



Poem...

When I Must Leave You


"When I must leave you for a little while



Please do not grieve and shed wild tears



And hug your sorrow to you through the years.



But start out bravely with a gallant smile;



And for my sake and in my name



Live on and do all things the same,



Feed not your loneliness on empty days,



But fill each waking hour in useful ways,



Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer



And I in turn will comfort you And hold you near;



And never, never be afraid to die,



For I am waiting for you in the sky!"

Tiny angels

Verse....  "The Lord GOd will wipe away tears from all faces...."  Isaiah 25:8 NKJV



Thought for today...  In the midst of your daily storms, make it a point to be still and set your sights on God.  Let God be God.  Let him bathe you in his glory so that your breath and your troubles are sucked from your soul.  Be still.  Be quiet.  Be open and willing.  Then you will know that God is God.  (Max Lucado)


Song/video....  




Poem...  a video poem for today.. 

Hope - not an easy word

Verse...  "What is impossible with man is possible with God."  Matthew 19:26




Thought for today....  People who walk closely,steadily with God do not fear the future.  Even when bad news comes, they can accept it.  That doesnt mean they wont have emotions about it - sadness, anger, even despair.  But they know there is no need to fear, even in the face of disaster, because they trust God.  They know that God is in control of all things.  God can work all things for the good.  So when even terrible circumstances erupt around them, their immediate reaction is to jump into God's arms and let him carry them.  (Peter Wallace)




Song/video...    This is an absolutely beautiful song!  I hope you all enjoy! 




Poem...

NOT AN EASY WORD



Hope is not an easy word

for grievers

but we, more than most others,

need to understand

what hope can mean for us.

Hope means finding the strength

to live with grief.

Hope means nurturing

with grace

the joy of remembrance.

Hope means embracing

with tenderness and pride

our own life and

the gifts left to us

by those we have lost.

By Sascha from WINTERSUN

Broken

Verse....  "Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." Mark 11:24


Thought for today...  Wisdom comes when we examine the experiences God gives us and discern what we have (or should have) learned from them. 



Song/video... 





Poem...

Broken



My heart is broken.



Why can't you all just see.



It is not strength I show.



Just an empty hallow me.



You have changed.



Some might say.



The happy, laughing, smiling me.



Has quickly gone away.



My son has gone to heaven.



And with him a piece of me.



You don't quite understand.



And are not sure what to say.



I am not sure of anything.



As I get up each and everyday.



I truly love my son.



Please don't let him be forgotten.



So when you see my tears.



And you think you've hurt me in someway.



Please don't walk away.



Just sit with me and talk.



About my son who went away.



I know my heart is broken.



And this you cannot fix.



It helps to know he's remembered.



By those he touched that day.



My very special Angel.



who had to go away.

I asked for strength...

Verse....  "Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."  Romans 12:2



Thought for today.....   Lord I waited to hold my little one on my lap and tell them about you. But since I never had the chance, Will you please hold them on your lap and tell them about me?




Song/video.... 




Poem...

I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong




I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve



I asked for prosperity and God gave me brawn and brain to work



I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome



I asked for patience God placed me in situations





where I was forced to wait





I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help



I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities



I received nothing I wanted I received everything I needed



My Prayer Has Been Answered...

I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help




I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities



I received nothing I wanted I received everything I needed



My Prayer Has Been Answered...

If we could have a lifetime wish...

Verse...  "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."  Psalm 119:105 NIV



Thought for today...  When I find myself needing help, God picks me up, wraps me in His arms and holds me close to his heart.



Song/video....  



Poem....

If we could have a lifetime wish




A dream that would

come true,

We'd pray to God with

all our hearts

For yesterday and You.

A thousand words

can't bring you back

We know because

we've tried...

Neither will a

thousand tears

We know because

we've cried...

You left behind our broken hearts

And happy

memories too...

But we never wanted memories

We only wanted You.

The difference

Verse(s)...  "Then Job replied to the Lord: I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.  You asked 'Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?' Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know."Job 42:1-3 NIV


Thought for today...  God sent his son to die on the cross for our sins.  He knows your pain.



Song/video...   




Poem...

The Difference

I got up early one morning and rushed right into the day
I had so much to accomplish that I didnt have time to pray. 
Problems just tumbled about mke, and heavier came each task;
Why doesnt God help me? I wondered.  He answered "you didnt ask"
I wanted to see joy and beauty but the day toiled on gray and bleak.
I wondered why God didnt show me.
He said "But you didnt seek"
I tried to come into God's presence; I used all my keys at the lock
God gently and lovingly chided
"My child you didnt knock"
I woke up early this morning and paused before entering the day
I had so much to accomplish that I had to take time to pray. 

Author Unknown

About being strong

Verse....  "For where your treasure is your heart will be also."  Luke 12:34  NIV



Thought for the day....  Grief is like a long valley, a winding valley where any bend may reveal a totally new landscape....  Not every bend does.  Sometimes the suprise is the opposite one; you are presented wtih exactly the same sort of country that you thought you had left behind a mile ago.  That is when you wonder whether the valley isnt a circular trench.  But it isnt.  There are partial recurrences, but the sequence doesnt repeat. (C.S. Lewis)



Song/video.... 



Poem....

About Being Strong


by Sascha



Many people are convinced

that being strong and brave

means trying to think

and talk about “something else.”



But we know

that being strong and brave

means thinking and talking

about our child

until our grief begins to be bearable.





That is strength.

That is courage.

And only thus can

“being strong and brave”

help us to heal.

A Place

Verse.....  "Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck."  Psalm 69:1I   Dont we sometimes feel this way?  Some days I feel like I am drowning in grief.



Thought for today....  It's time to let God's love cover all things in your life.  All secrets.  All hurts.  (Max Lucado)



Song/video...     




Poem...

A Place


by Ileana Villahermosa



I've just met a group of friends

We all seem to feel the same

We are all part of a place

Where we share each others pain



In this place we're all alone

No one wants ever to go

It is filled by those who lost

At least a daughter or son

A child that will forever

No longer be here with us



This place is not really far

It is here in our hearts

No one believes it exists

Others think is just a myth!!



Is a place where our old friends

Seem to no longer ask

About the kids we once had

Like if they don't say a word

It will no longer hurt

They are scared, they don't want

Ever to walk our path



We know no one understands

Unless they've been there once

Once you've enter to this place

There's no way you'll be the same



It is in this place that we keep

All the dreams that we once had

All of our hopes and our past

The memories of our child



It is in this place

Where we've learn

That the pain will not be less

Whether we are asleep or awake

That we were betrayed by fate



It is in there where we pray

And ask for that great reward

Dear God, please find the way

We'll be patient and we'll wait

For that clear sunny day

When we no longer feel pain



We all want the same reward

See our child and have them back

Let them come and take our hand

Let them take us to your land

Let us never be apart

We cannot give you back...

Verse...  "The angel said to them 'Do not be afraid Zecheriah; your prayer has been heard."  Luke 1:13 NIV



Thought for today...  God does not want us to fear...



Song/video....  




Article..  Here is a great article about controlling anxieties around the holidays...  I hope you guys read and enjoy..   http://www.bpusastl.org/Articles/HOL-ANX.pdf




Poem...  (I think this applies to all the girls on PL)...

We cannot give you back


what you have lost,

but we know where you are today -

because we have been there ourselves.



We cannot give you the answer

to your "why" questions

or take away your pain

or give you peace.



But we can be here for you.

We can walk the path of grief with you -

because many of us have walked

the whole way -

and we made it !

Protecting father...

Verse...  "We know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love Him."  Romans 8:28




Thought for today...  God's love is not a passing fancy: it is a profound and unshakeable committment. (Billy Graham)



Song/video.....  This isnt the greatest video, but the song is fantastic.  I wish I could have found a better video..




Poem....

If it is true that trouble comes in waves, then I have been buried by a typhoon lately.


Every move I make lands me in another hole.

Every turn I take runs me into another wall.

Every decision I come up with turns out to be wrong.

What a night mare I have been living!



I have turned to others for help and advice, they left me feeling more desperate than before. I looked for answers in books, magazines, on radio and TV. Everywhere I turned led me to a dead end.



Then I Turned To You.

What refreshment You brought me.

Confidence replaced my concern.

Hope appeared in my heart from nowhere.

I don't know why I didn't run to You in the first place. You have always offered help in my troubles. Thank You for carrying me on Your shoulders through the storm, and shielding me from the wind and the rains.







The LORD Answers;



Consider Me a safe place where you can hide, and I will protect you from trouble and surround you with my songs of deliverance. I am your shepherd who will not leave you in need. I will help you lie down in flourishing fields; I will show you quiet waters and refresh your soul.

I have told you these things so that you can find peace in Me. In this world you will have trouble, but here is my promise to you;



I have overcome the world!



I have given My angels charge over you.

In their hands they shall lift you up.

When God calls....

Verse.... (I struggled with this one today.  Its a great verse, but I hope you guys dont think I am happy that you had losses.  It just means that Im glad your faith is strengthened because of it.)

"I am glad..... not because it hurt you but because the pain turned you to God."  2 Corinthians 7:9 LB


Thought for today...  May I never forget that thou hast my heart in thy hands.  (Puritan Prayer)



Song/video... 



Poem...

WHEN GOD CALLS


By Cindy O'Connor

When God calls little children to dwell with him above,

We mortals sometimes question.

For no heartache compares with the death of one small child.

Who does so much to make our world,

seem wonderful and mild.

Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold,

So he picks a rosebud before it can grow old.

God knows how much we need them,

and so he takes but a few,

To make the Land of Heaven more beautiful to view.

Believing this is difficult still somehow we must try.

The saddest word mankind knows will always be"Goodbye".

So when a little child departs,

we who are left behind must realize God loves children,

Angels are hard to find.

He only took my hand....

Verse...  "My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, for they will prolong your life many years and bring you prospertiy"  Proverbs 3:1&2



Thought for today...  Though we know God is not to blame for any death, so many times it seems that he turns a blind eye by allowing his permissive will to occur.  He stands dead-center when we are looking for a target.  Im convinced that God loves us so much that he is willing to take the blame, to absorb our anger when we need a punching bag.  I think he would rather have us yelling at him than not speaking at all.  (Leslie Williams)



Song/video... 




Poem... (I know this poem was written about a child who had lived life here on earth, but I think it still applies to us who have lost our precious babies.)

He Only Took My Hand


"Last night while I was trying to sleep,



My son's voice I did hear



I opened my eyes and looked around,



But he did not appear.



He said: "Mom you've got to listen,



You've got to understand



God didn't take me from you, mom



He only took my hand.



When I called out in pain that night,



The instant that I died,



He reached down and took my hand,



And pulled me to His side.



He pulled me up and saved me



From the misery and pain.



My body was hurt so badly inside,



I could never be the same.



My search is really over now,



I've found happiness within,



All the answers to my empty dreams



And all that might have been.



I love you all and miss you so,



And I'll always be nearby.



My body's gone forever,



But my spirit will never die!



And so, you must all go on now,



Live one day at a time.



Just understand-



God did not take me from you,



He only took my hand."



~Author Unknown

Dear Lord I thank you...

Verse....  "We know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God...."  Romans 8:28  NIV



Thought for today...  God can take your greatest misery and turn it into your greatest ministry.  God doesnt want to use you in your areas of strength, he will use you in your weakness! (Pastor Steven Moseley)



Song/video...  




Prayer for you ladies today... 

Dear Lord: I thank You for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You. Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. Let me continue to see sin through God's eyes and acknowledge it as evil. And when I sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing, and receive the forgiveness of God. And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus' example to slip away and find a quiet place to pray. It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that will not share this with others. I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe. I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly. This is my prayer. In Jesus' Name, Amen.


Author Unknown

Prepare for rain

Verse...  "You wont succeed by might or power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord."  Zechariah 4:6 GWT


Thought for today...  (this was an actual clip taken from my bible study last night.  we watch a video every week by Rick Warren.  I thought this was too good not to share).

Attitudes are like diapers.  They need to be changed every once in a while or they start to stink up the place.  Rick Warren



Song/video.......  





Great video clip for today...  I hope you ladies enjoy this clip.  It is a fantastic message from the movie "Facing the Giants"  If you havent already seen it I highly recommend the movie to you!



Here is a trailer from the movie if you are interested..  It is a fantastic movie!

Not like you...

Verse...  "He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler."  Psalm 91:4




Thought for today...  What happens to good people when bad things happen to them?  They become better people.  (Robert Schuller)





Song/video...  This is a great new song I just found today.  I hope you all enjoy it.  I think it applies to us! 



Poem...

Not Like You


by Sheri Hess



I am a mother, though not like you.

You cradle your sweet baby in your arms,

Mine are empty, but I hold him in my heart.

You brush her soft curly hair,

and tie pretty pink bows just right.

A lock of his hair is tucked neatly in a book

You pick daisies and tie them in a chain

to wear around her neck

I cut lilacs and arrange them in a vase to set at his grave.

You look forward to dreams and plans.

I hold on to memories.

I am a mother,

though not like you.



In Memory of Dakota Rain Hess

I knew you for a moment.....

Verse...  "Continue praying, keeping alert, and always thanking God."  Colossians 4:2 NCV




Thought for the day...  Help me to see that although I am in the wilderness it is not all briars and barrenness.  (Puritan Prayer from The Valley of Vision)





Song...  




Poem..

*I Knew you for a Moment*


My Precious Little Baby,
Your face I've never seen,
Your skin I've never touched before,
Nor held you close to me.

You lived inside my body,
But only for a while;
Till Jesus softly whispered,
"Come home my little child."

You must have been a special child;
If God needed you up there,
Because heaven is a better home,
It's beauty can't compare.

So till I get to heaven,
And see your shining face;
Jesus will take care of you,
And love you in my place.

Yes, Jesus loves His little lambs,
They sit around His throne;
So sit on Jesus' lap dear child-
Till Mommy gets called home.

~Author Unknown~

The truth is....

Verse...   "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."  Galatians 6:9 NIV



Thought for today....  Whatever you think about you become.



Song/video... 



Inspiring words for today....


The Truth Is...



1. The truth ISN'T that you will feel "all better" in a couple of days, or weeks, or even months.



The truth IS that the days will be filled with an unending ache and the nights will feel one million sad years long for a while. Healing is attained only after the slow necessary progression through the stages of grief and mourning.





2. The truth isn't that a new pregnancy will help you forget.



The truth is that, while thoughts of a new pregnancy soon may provide hope, a lost infant deserves to be mourned just as you would have with anyone you loved. Grieving takes a lot of energy and can be both emotionally and physically draining. This could have an impact upon your health during another pregnancy. While the decision to try again is a very individualized one, being pregnant while still actively grieving is very difficult.





3. The truth isn't that pills or alcohol will dull the pain.



The truth is that they will merely postpone the reality you must eventually face in order to begin healing. However, if your doctor feels that medication is necessary to help maintain your health, use it intelligently and according to his/her instructions.





4. The truth isn't that once this is over your life will be the same.



The truth is that your upside-down world will slowly settle down, hopefully leaving you a more sensitive, compassionate person, better prepared to handle the hard times that everyone must deal with sooner or later. When you consider that you have just experienced one of the worst things that can happen to a family, as you heal you will become aware of how strong you are.





5. The truth isn't that grieving is morbid, or a sign of weakness or mental instability.



The truth is that grieving is work that must be done. Now is the appropriate time. Allow yourself the time. Feel it, flow with it. Try not to fight it too often. It will get easier if you expect that it is variable, that some days are better than others. Be patient with yourself. There are no short cuts to healing. The active grieving will be over when all the work is done.





6. The truth isn't that grief is all-consuming.



The truth is that in the midst of the most agonizing time of your life, there will be laughter. Don't feel guilty. Laugh if you want to. Just as you must allow yourself the time to grieve, you must also allow yourself the time to laugh. Viewing laughter as part of the healing process, just as overwhelming sadness is now, will make the pain more bearable.





7. The truth isn't that one person can bear this alone.



The truth is that while only you can make the choices necessary to return to the mainstream of life a healed person, others in your life are also grieving and are feeling very helpless. As unfair as it may seem, the burden of remaining in contact with family and friends often falls on you. They are afraid to "butt in," or they may be fearful of saying or doing the wrong thing. This makes them feel even more helpless. They need to be told honestly what they can do to help. They don't need to be told, "I'm doing fine" when you're really NOT doing fine. By allowing others to share in your pain and assist you with your needs, you will be comforted and they will feel less helpless.



8. The truth isn't that God must be punishing you for something.



The truth is that sometimes these things just happen. They have happened to many people before you, and they will happen to many people after you. This was not an act of any God; it was an act of Nature. It isn't fair to blame God, or yourself, or anyone else. Try to understand that it is human nature to look for a place to put the blame, especially when there are so few answers to the question, "Why?" Sometimes there are answers. Most times there are not. Believing that you are being punished will only get in the way of your healing.





9. The truth isn't that you will be unable to make any choices or decisions during this time.



The truth is that while major decisions, such as moving or changing jobs, are better off being postponed for now, life goes on. It will be difficult, but decisions dealing with the death of your baby (seeing and naming the baby, arranging and/or attending a religious ritual, taking care of the nursery items you have acquired) are all choices you can make for yourself. Well-meaning people will try to shelter you from the pain of this. However, many of us who have suffered similar losses agree that these first decisions are very important. They help to make the loss real. Our brains filter out much of the pain early on as a way to protect us. Very soon after that, we find ourselves reliving the events over and over, trying to remember everything. This is another way that we acknowledge the loss. Until the loss is real, grieving cannot begin. Being involved at this early time will be a painful experience, but it will help you deal with your grief better as you progress by providing comforting memories of having performed loving, caring acts for your baby.





10. The truth isn't that you will be delighted to hear that a friend or other loved one has just given birth to a healthy baby.



The truth is that you may find it very difficult to be around mothers with young babies. You may be hurt, or angry, or jealous. You may wonder why you couldn't have had that joy. You may be resentful, or refuse to see friends with new babies. You may even secretly wish that the same thing would happen to someone else. You want someone to understand how it feels. You may also feel very ashamed that you could wish such things on people you love or care about, or think that you must be a dreadful person. You aren't. You're human, and even the most loving people can react this way when they are actively grieving. If the situations were reversed, your friends would be feeling and thinking the same things you are. Forgive yourself. It's OK. These feelings will eventually go away.





11. The truth isn't that all marriages survive this difficult time.



The truth is that sometimes you might blame one another, resent one another, or dislike being with one another. If you find this happening, get help. There are self-help groups available or grief counselors who can help. Don't ignore it or tuck it away assuming it will get better. It won't. Actively grieving people cannot help one another. It is unrealistic, like having two people who were blinded at the same time teach each other Braille. Talking it out with others may help. It might even save your marriage.



12. The truth isn't that eventually you will accept the loss of your baby and forget all about this awful time.



The truth is that acceptance is a word reserved for the understanding you come to when you've successfully grieved the loss of a parent, or a grandparent, or a beloved older relative. When you lose a child, your whole future has been affected, not your past. No one can really accept that. But there is resolution in the form of healing and learning how to cope. You will survive. Many of us who have gone through this type of grief are afraid we might forget about our babies once we begin to heal. This won't happen. You will always remember your precious baby because successful grieving carves a place in your heart where he or she will live forever.

Jesus heard you....

Verse...  "surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows."  Isaiah 53:4



Thought for today.....  The peace of God passes understanding.



Song/video... 


Poem...

Jesus heard when you prayed last night.
He talked to God about you
Jesus was there when you fought that fight
he is going to bring you through
Jesus knew when you shed those tears,
you did not weep alone
The burdens you thought too heavy to bear,
he made them his very own.

Jesus himself was touched by that trial,
you could not understand
Jesus stood by as you almost fell
and lovingly clasped your hand.

Jesus cared when you bore that pain,
indeed, he bore it too
He felt each pain, each ache in your heart,
because of his love for you.

Corrie Ten Boom

An angel never dies....

Verse...  "The Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces....."  Isaiah 25:8 NKJV




Thought for today...  I know of only one starting place in the war against sorrow an that is.... in the arms of Almighty God. (Robert A. Williams)




Song/video..  





Poem... 

An Angel Never Dies


Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,

That something stopped my heart

I felt each tender squeeze you gave,

I’ve loved you from the start.



Although my body you can’t hold

It doesn’t mean I’m gone

This world was worthy, not of me

God chose that I move on.



I know the pain that drowns your soul,

What you are forced to face

You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,

Someday we will embrace.



You’ll hear that it was meant to be,

God doesn’t make mistakes

But that wont soften your worst blow,

Or make your heart not ache.



I’m watching over all you do,

Another child you’ll bear

Believe me when I say to you,

That I am always there.



There will come a time, I promise you,

When you will hold my hand,

Stroke my face and kiss my lips

And then you’ll understand.



Although I’ve never breathed your air,

Or gazed into your eyes

That doesn’t mean I never was,

An Angel never dies.



Author Unknown

Remembering our baby angels...

Verse...  "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."  Matthew 5:4



Thought for today...  If God seems distant, who moved?




Song.....  



Poem... 

Angels

Verse...  "May your unfailing love be my comfort."  Psalm 119:76 NIV



Thought for today...  I shall know why, when the time is over, and I have ceased to wonder why; Christ will explain each separate anguish in the fair schoolroom of the sky.  Emily Dickinson


Song.... 


Poem...

Angels


An Angel from the Book of Life



Wrote down my baby's birth,



And whispered as she closed the book



"Too Beautiful For Earth"



Author Unknown

They say there is a reason

Verse...  "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." psalm 34:18 NIV



Thought for today...  Those who God uses most walk with the biggest "limp".



Song/video.. 



Poem....  

They Say There is a Reason




They say there is a reason,

They say that time will heal,

But neither time nor reason,

Will change the way I feel,

For no-one knows the heartache,

That lies behind our smiles,

No-one knows how many times,

We have broken down and cried,

We want to tell you something,

So there won't be any doubt,

You're so wonderful to think of,

But so hard to be without.



Author Unknown

This Halloween, My Child is an Angel

Verse....  "Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows." Isaiah 53:4



Thought for today...  The peace of God passes all understanding. (Leslie Williams)



Song... 



Poem...

I would like to dedicate this poem to beautiful Sophia & Natalie.  Sophia's mother, a friend of mine,  wrote this.   I hold no rights to this poem.  It was written and copyrighted by Natalie.  Do not use this without  permission from the author. 

This Halloween, My Child is an Angel



"No tricks, no treats this year


to brighten up her smile

No searches for tiny costumes

down crowded clothing aisles



We won't show up knocking

on our neighbor's door

Or join the goblins and ghouls

collecting candy store-to-store



I did not get to choose

what my child would be this year

For you see, she's gone to heaven

and the future seems so unclear.



But I imagine she has a tiny halo

floating right above her head

And I swear she's watching over us,

and this is what she said:



"I may not get to join you

on this chilly Halloween night,

But I'm a tiny Angel now

and I'm never out of sight.



You can see me in the changing leaves

that fall from up above,

And when the wind whistles by your ear,

I'm whispering my love."